We all know this particular passage of scripture. It's in songs and poems. Our parents and grandparents would quote it to us when we were being just a bit impatient. The trouble that I'm having lately is trying to figure out how to survive this... "season" that I'm in. I'm not 20 years old yet and I have already been through things that will haunt my dreams for the rest of my life. And I do know that there are so many people who are going through things that I couldn't even imagine. Still, it's hard to think of the pain that other's are going through when you're hurting so much on the inside, is it not? When you have so much pain built up that you just need something, or some way to relieve it. Something to take your mind off of whatever it is that is troubling you, no matter how insignificant it may seem to someone else. The truth is, everyone has pain. It's how they deal with it that counts.
My world is one that contains many secrets. Some of my secrets are known to a few people, and only the people who cared enough to pay attention, but not all of them. I live a life inhabited by eating disorders, self injury, and self loathing. I'm not looking for sympathy, although to be honest, sometimes having others feel for you and sympathize with you can be quite comforting. I just want to share my everyday struggles and feelings in hopes of finding some kind of peace within myself to get through the day and to maybe learn something about myself. I'm going to post about how I came to be who and what I am. How my "seasons" go back and forth from bright and beautiful to dark and depressing. And hopefully I'll get some feedback, whether positive or negative. So all that being said, I look forward to sharing with everyone!
~Courtney~
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Sometimes you need to vent. I hope you can find peace. I'm interested in what else you have to say. I saw you were following my blog. Hang in there!
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